Lent is hard

Duh, right? Lent is supposed to be hard.

This is the first year I’ve actually participated in Lent. I spent a lot of time thinking about what God would want me to give up. And I spent a lot of time asking Him. One morning, on the train, I got my answer. I’ve struggled a lot with my relationships with men in the past, going from one guy to the next, not really taking time for myself in between. As I was thinking about this, and thinking about Lent, I suddenly realized God would want me to give up dating for a while, probably a long while, so I could focus on my relationship with Him and also focus on ridding myself of the self-destructive cycle.

I’ve never been addicted to any substance before, but I do think I am addicted to the good feeling I get when men are paying attention to me. It doesn’t even matter if I really even like the guy in return, the attention makes me feel good, and I use it to build my confidence. This, I’ve realized, is self-destructive behavior. Which is why my Lenten sacrifice has multiple levels. In giving up dating, I will work to strengthen my relationship with God while also working to become better at being single. I’m a hard-working, smart girl who has a lot going for her, I just need to rid myself of this unhealthy dating cycle. So far, so good. But we’re not even a week into Lent yet.

I know this is going to be a challenge for me, and I’m ready to give it everything I’ve got.

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One thought on “Lent is hard

  1. All I gotta say is, I’m proud of you and excited for what’s going to happen! Crazy potential for sheer awesomeness…once that something “yet to be known” clicks. 🙂

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