Risky 2012

“This year is going to be about taking risks, and you’re coming with me.”

The person who said that to me one year ago is no longer in my life and I’m okay with that. Because God was speaking to me through this person, and I can say without a doubt that 2012 was an amazing roller coaster.

If you know me, you know that I’m not afraid of risk, but I don’t often take risks. I am the girl who has an exit strategy for every situation. Well, 2012 was a bit different for me.

First, 2012 was the first year I have spent truly single since I can remember. One whole year. That’s a really long time. Originally, I gave up dating for Lent to focus on my relationship with God. Once Lent was over, I did date a bit, but realized I don’t want to date someone for the sake of dating someone. No more settling. So, I’ve spent my time as a singleton strengthening my relationship with God and everything that entails.

Through strengthening my relationship with Him, He has challenged me to step out of my comfort zone in other ways. I haven’t traveled more in any other year than 2012, starting with going to Los Angeles for a long overdue visit with my best friend. I also traveled for my career and even led a presentation for an important client.

And while I was strengthening my ties with Him, God didn’t want me to forget about physical strength. In 2012 I ran my first 5K, which was also an obstacle mud run. I also spent a week in the Canadian wilderness with 11 other women, paddling and carrying a canoe on my back. When I think back on my decisions to do these things, I know God was behind it, because I definitely wouldn’t have agreed on my own to forfeit running hot water for a week in the Canada cold.

So 2012 started with a challenge from God to step out in faith and take some risks for Him. I have a feeling God is going to take this to the next level for me in 2013, and guess what? I’m ready.



Delayed Processor

Ioverthinking process things slowly, which is weird because I’m very opinionated. I can make decisions quickly, but when it comes to processing deep concepts, I have a tendency to dwell.

Last week I was in Kansas City, MO, for International House of Prayer’s OneThing conference. Needless to say, I’m still processing. But I have made some progress in the process.

Bear with me, as some (most) of these will fall under the “duh” category.

1. I am God’s daughter, and He delights in me. He loves it when I talk to Him, and so I make sure I talk to Him frequently.

2. I don’t need a person (i.e.: man) to feel good about my place in life. I am educated, have a stable career, I live on my own, and do adult things (pay bills, clean the bathroom, get the oil changed on my car, etc.). I also have the best Dad anyone could ask for.

3. God is my ultimate provider. God will keep me on the path He has set for me, if I make sure to tell Him I want to do His will.

Knowing these basic Truths, I made several actions in affirmation. I have deleted my online dating profiles, because God will provide for me, but only if I am willing to put all my trust in Him.

I have talked to God everyday, even if it wasn’t in formal prayer (I have a tendency to continuously and randomly converse with Him throughout the day, usually I’m admiring His sense of humor).

I have accepted my position as a processor, as opposed to fighting it. And while doing so, I’ve learned to accept Truths much more easily, as if God told me to stop thinking so hard and simply accept.

And while I’m discussing accepting, I’ve recognized my need to work on freely accepting God’s love and praise in all its forms of delivery. This is something that will take daily effort, but if God delights in me, then I have to accept his delight.

It’s simple, really, I just need to stop thinking and do, while accepting that some stuff might take me a bit to process. Simple, right?