Last year I wrote a post about how difficult it was for me to stick to my Lenten sacrifice. If you remember (it’s okay if you don’t), I gave up dating. Which, after the initial few weeks, actually became quite pleasant.
Last year I gave up dating to refocus my attention on my relationship with God. I have a tendency to put my earthly relationships with men first in my life, and I know God has tried throughout my life to grab my attention and I’ve resisted. After that exercise, I recognize and embrace my position as God’s daughter, and put Him first in my life.
This year, I prayed and prayed for God to reveal to me what I should sacrifice for 40 days. And I got nothin’. But I didn’t really get nothing. Through my prayers I recognized my need to align my will with God’s, and so I’ve dedicated myself to prayer. Like last year, this Lenten mission will last much longer than 40 days.
In order to align my will with God’s, I ask Him every day to help me recognize and work to eliminate my spiritual strongholds. This has definitely been an exercise in moving outside of my comfort zone to deal with things from my past that I prefer to leave well enough alone. But I know they still nag at me, and I won’t truly be free to align with Him until they are dealt with.
I won’t lie, it hasn’t been comfortable. I will actually take that a bit further and admit that it’s been thoroughly uncomfortable at times. But I can’t imagine spending 40 days in the forest being tempted by the Devil was easy for Jesus, so He helps me put my discomfort and resistance into perspective.
And while it hasn’t been easy and it hasn’t been comfortable, I’ve stepped up and pushed myself to do what needs to be done, with God’s help, of course.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6.